Well, this weekend was an interesting one... Peter and I broke up... then played frisbee in the park the next day... and that night I got drunk and broke down. My poor friends had to deal with a blubbering me for a few hours... but I did try to keep it away from the party by confining myself to a bathroom. Thank you Corey and Millie for being there, I appriciate that a lot. Even though Peter is being kinda distant with the way that he's dealing with me I appriciate that he is letting me talk it out while I am organizing it in my head so that I will be okay. Peter is one of those people where a possible relationship could have screwed up a great friendship. I thank him for his ability to see that my emotions and romantic nature are seperate from my general like of him and our friendship... which is currently being remodeled. Wow things certainly get more complicated as one gets older.
The next order of buisness is what to do next... get myself in gear I guess... decide what I am going to do next. I know I have to move. I know I have to buy a car. I know I want to visit one of my really good friends that actually know me... I need that for my soul. I need to get a computer. I need to set myself up for some serious change because it is in the air. I want to go back to kung fu. I want to get centered again. I want to visit with old friends. Oh! thats news... k this past weekend was my kf school's grand opening of their new building and I went and I saw the old student that I had not seen in 3 or 4 years. Brian Allen Heather Dawn Dalton Bobby it was sooo cool! I really miss those guys. Anyway, I am at work... nothing is happening but I would hate to get cut-off so I will say goodbye for now.
Monday, March 14, 2005
Friday, March 11, 2005
with or without class
http://snarkyspot.blogspot.com/ wanted to be able to go back to this blog... its great!
In other news... people keep saying silly things around me in class and I think they are funny so I think I will post them. Also I keep getting these ideas of things to discuss because they sound interesting so I think I may post those as well so that I can remember them later when certain people wanna argue their little hearts out. =D For me its a bunch of musings, for them it seems to be a test of wills or a much more organized philisophical debate.
In other news... people keep saying silly things around me in class and I think they are funny so I think I will post them. Also I keep getting these ideas of things to discuss because they sound interesting so I think I may post those as well so that I can remember them later when certain people wanna argue their little hearts out. =D For me its a bunch of musings, for them it seems to be a test of wills or a much more organized philisophical debate.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Musings on Life
Why are their so few people I really connect with? People that I really like and can relate to. Conversations flow like water, no effort, and we always have a good time. I want more friends like that. A girl just joined my chorus. She is so much fun and I like her alot. I hope to take advantage of this friendship because she is one of the very few girls that I really like. I tend to favor boys socially cause girls are just too complicated and weird at times.
Lately I have been feeling kinda out of the loop socially. My group of friends tend to socialize past my bedtime (I work really early in the AM) and my boyfriend is always with them and I feel like I get left alone alot. The BF is a whole different story. If I didn't call him for two weeks, I wouldn't hear from him and he would be fine with that. He thinks thats how relationships should work... where you don't have to talk to that person everyday. Well, I think that would be easier to abide by if I thought he actually gave a damn about me. It can be really good some days.... but thats if everything has been on his terms. Blah I don't wanna talk about it right now.
So, I made a learning tape for my chorus (my quartet made it) and we checked my notes by listening to my part played by itself and looking at the music and now the bari section leader, the underequiped person who has my job, is saying that I am wrong in two places. And they announced it in front of the bari section without ever discussing it with me. SO thats how I found out. They are saying that the section has been singing these two parts wrong and they learned it off the tape so the tape is wrong. I asked my tenor about it and she said we were all tired so it could have slipped by. SO I am having someone look at it for me cause I wanna know for sure.
The chorus was singing great this weekend and then on Tuesday they were muscling it and driving it down so much I couldn't stand it and I blame it all on Warren warming them up because he turns everyone's sound dark. He describes things that work for the men but need to be explained differently for women or you are going to get a different result than you expected.
I made a new friend yesterday. His name is Steven and he is in my Anth 434 class. We wrote notes back and forth all class and then ate IN 'N OUT in my car while I "culturized" him. Thats the term I use for bombarding people with barbershop music to introduce the stuff to them. I also play some other a cappella stuff like doo wop and religious (fun god songs that acappella groups sing) so they can hear the difference.
I made a new friend last week in Bio Lab when I went to another lab to make up the one I missed the day before. We studied for the bio test we had that week and I discovered that my level of intellegence requirement had been severely raised since the last time I checked my stupidity tolerance level. Peter is way into Science and Math and all kinds of things and to sit there and havbe someone say they don't get science or they don't like it or its too hard or whatever just bumms me out. Especially when they don't offer any other signs of intelegent life. You have to be brilliant at something or you don't impress me at all.
Well, I have babbled on long enough... time to get back to work.
Lately I have been feeling kinda out of the loop socially. My group of friends tend to socialize past my bedtime (I work really early in the AM) and my boyfriend is always with them and I feel like I get left alone alot. The BF is a whole different story. If I didn't call him for two weeks, I wouldn't hear from him and he would be fine with that. He thinks thats how relationships should work... where you don't have to talk to that person everyday. Well, I think that would be easier to abide by if I thought he actually gave a damn about me. It can be really good some days.... but thats if everything has been on his terms. Blah I don't wanna talk about it right now.
So, I made a learning tape for my chorus (my quartet made it) and we checked my notes by listening to my part played by itself and looking at the music and now the bari section leader, the underequiped person who has my job, is saying that I am wrong in two places. And they announced it in front of the bari section without ever discussing it with me. SO thats how I found out. They are saying that the section has been singing these two parts wrong and they learned it off the tape so the tape is wrong. I asked my tenor about it and she said we were all tired so it could have slipped by. SO I am having someone look at it for me cause I wanna know for sure.
The chorus was singing great this weekend and then on Tuesday they were muscling it and driving it down so much I couldn't stand it and I blame it all on Warren warming them up because he turns everyone's sound dark. He describes things that work for the men but need to be explained differently for women or you are going to get a different result than you expected.
I made a new friend yesterday. His name is Steven and he is in my Anth 434 class. We wrote notes back and forth all class and then ate IN 'N OUT in my car while I "culturized" him. Thats the term I use for bombarding people with barbershop music to introduce the stuff to them. I also play some other a cappella stuff like doo wop and religious (fun god songs that acappella groups sing) so they can hear the difference.
I made a new friend last week in Bio Lab when I went to another lab to make up the one I missed the day before. We studied for the bio test we had that week and I discovered that my level of intellegence requirement had been severely raised since the last time I checked my stupidity tolerance level. Peter is way into Science and Math and all kinds of things and to sit there and havbe someone say they don't get science or they don't like it or its too hard or whatever just bumms me out. Especially when they don't offer any other signs of intelegent life. You have to be brilliant at something or you don't impress me at all.
Well, I have babbled on long enough... time to get back to work.
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