Thursday, September 22, 2005
Gauntlet Champion Revealed =D
So I have been spending lots and lots of time working... going to school... singing.. and trying to sleep. In between all that I have spent an amount of time with Chris and it is going well. =) He has seen me in various moods and social situations, not all of them at my best... few at my best but hey? o'well. Reality and all. Through all the moods and crazy stuff I seem to have been throwing at him he has been unwaivering, kind, patient, and good humoured. I don't really know why I seem to want to test him so strenuously... it wasn't something I conciously realized I was doing but I believe in some twisted way I know he is not going to get mad over something stupid or leave me out of nowhere and all that. blah. I think I just wanted to show the extremities of my personality because I don't want to get involved with someone if they end up having a problem with my personality instead of a deliberate action. Oh and I told him next time I am all tispy and being stupid just walk up and stake claim cause he's the only one who has any. Plus I like a bit of man handleing now and then. I don't mean verbal mind you... don't go there. I have not put anyone through the emotion roller coaster gauntlet before but he is just walking through it with flying colors. I think the end result is sooo much better than me just being even keeled and stuff until I have an emotional breakdown or get really hyper one day and the guy is like huh? not the docile girl I thought I had. Well, I guess that is an extreme cause I am not very docile. blah ok so enough with the crazy self eval stuff.... end result: I need more sleep, Chris is awesome, and I won in the megabucks jackpot of boyfriends.