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Multi-tasking

I just finished the trim and touch-ups on the purple room.. all that is left is the door frame and possibly the door, oh and we are going to replace the closet doors with mirrored doors. yeay! I can't wait to take all the plastic off the floor and clean out the room so I can see it as it really is. The home gym thing has been moved... I am going to post a "who wants it" on a forum or two so that it doesn't go to waist. Same with the couch and love seat set. But I am thinking of holding off on the couch thing until we get a table or another couch (to replace the other one, yes there are two couches and a love seat involved here). But I really want to be able to move my futon or desk in and right now the loveseat is taking up that space. Made a salad tonight and made my own dressing... thanks MOM! =D Called her the other day for tips on that. Also cleaned out my car tonight as well. Now I just have to go through all the crap that I brought into the house. I have this thing against throwing away information so I have lots of little pieces of paper with random bits of information on them. I have decided to start a database on my laptop (got a laptop! did I tell ya that?) that way I won't lose the info and I won't have to keep all those old pieces of paper. Well, lots more to do.. I need to work on my German homework but its time for bed... I have chorus tomorrow night so it will be a late late night. bye =)

one step closer

I met the folks today. Well, I had met them before today but today I spent time with Chris's Mom, Dad, Aunt, Uncles, Grandmother, and Grandfather. It was a family gathering for his mom's birthday. I talked with his mom about singing groups ... she seems to like Motown and Elvis... I tried to explain about the barbershop that I sing but women singing barbershop was alien to her as I find it is with most people. I talked to his dad about religious people and the reason why he liked Vegas so much more than Illinois where he is from. Turns out his moms birthday is the day before mine and he is going to IL to visit her this year for her birthday. Chris's Aunt Sue is pretty fun. You can tell she is the type to highlight her good moods in a social situation. Her house was filled with all the beautiful pictures that she has taken over the years. At one point there was a discussion about a disease that birds carry and how it might infect and kill people. It was rather funny. About three times I was about to mention something that would have mentioned my moving into the house but I had to restrain myself because Chris has not told his parents yet. He later said he would tell his mother next time he saw her... hard to explain that but I do think its better that they met me before they found out I was moving in so they wouldn't meet me as that girl thats moving in... you know... preconcieved notions and all. Well, thats the major news of today... more stuff later.

unwanted alarm experience

ok so I am freakin tired and annoyed. The fire alarms in Chris' house have been beeping at me since 5am. I tried to sleep through them but every couple of minutes or so "chirp!" and it is just outside of Chris' range so he has been sleeping just fine. This was supposed to be my sleep in relax day and now I don't have any more time for sleep and that freaking alarm is still chirping at me. They are too high for me to reach and I dont know if he has a latter to reach the ceiling in the living room (vaulted) and the chirping keeps rotating through the different alarms. I was actually fine until the one in the bedroom started this morning. Now I don't know what to do. I need sleep... I have been in bed too long... I don't have anywhere to go to actually get sleep at this point and I still have to go shopping for a birthday present and show up to a house warming party and a birthday party. I would also like to finish the final details on the purple room so we can start on getting rid of the yellow one. Oh and my lower right molar has been hurting me recently. Its the tooth I had filled a little while ago. The dentist kept on having to drill deeper and deeper and now I wonder if I actually needed a root canal. Never had one so I don't know if my tooth is showing those symptoms or not. Another part of me hopes that it is just my tooth settling into the filling or whatever. Even though its like 6 months later practically. "Chirp!" grrr... now I am jealous of Chris and his ears' selective hearing. I guess everything holds plusses and minuses I just want to be able to sleep like a normal person... I feel like I am in some weird science experiment or something: Just how much can she take? Sleep deprevation mixed with abusive noises, News at 11. I feel like crying or hitting something or I don't know as long as it give me a cool dark soft place to sleep. I think I should start a list of unfavorable thing... starting with the sound and location of dieing fire alarms.

boyfriend

ok so ... I just have to brag on my boyfriend. This weekend I had to go to a barbershop seminar weekend because I am somehow intermingled with the regional staff and I am in the third place medalist quartet WILDFIRE. I had to work on Friday so I couldn't go with the rest of the quartet on Thursday... and then Chris offered to drive me and hang out for the weekend... and he was great. Wildfire has adopted him as our Cabana Boy and he was introduced as such to every room we went into Saturday night. He told me that people kept asking him if he sang or not. Then they would ask him how old he was... followed by the question, "How old is she?" Cause no one really knows... I surprise people with that all the time. Something interesting I have been noticing recently though... there are a bunch of people younger than me who are married and some who have kids as well... and I am starting to get weird. I have always wanted kids... now I feel it. Tonight I made Chris go get candy so I could pass it out to all the little kids that came to our door. They were sooo cute! Oh and speaking of cute... on the way back from Bakersfield Sunday Chris and I stopped off at Starbucks and there was this adorable young couple with the cutest baby. I know I probably shouldn't, but I keep joking with Chris about that. I know it is a later on down the road thing but I guess the hormones are just kicking in. Plus I really love kids. Anyway, Chris takes all of this in stride. He really is someone I am lucky to have met. I often wander off in my head a lot and no one ever gets all that mish mash but Chris gets a regular dose of my wandering mind all the time and he is great about it. Well, I should stop babbling... got to get some sleep so that I can get to writing tomorrow. More about that on the WIPs page later. =)

Purple!

This weekend Chris and I painted a room purple. My choice. And pretty soon his room will be some shade of blue. I just have to decide on what. Ok so I have calmed down a little about the moving in thing... maybe cause I am not thinking about it, I am just fixing the things that bug me the most about the place so I will feel better about moving there. Because time is short, I am going to talk to the office of my apartment complex about getting an extra month... or I will just have to move very very quickly... or sign another 6 month lease and use those 6 months to get Chris' house ready for me. Magical Trevor rocks. Ok anyway, so I need to get all this stuff figured out.

I got a bill in the mail for a procedure I had done in 2003. They are saying I owe about 550 dollars for a biopsey. yeay me. Only I believe I was on my mom's insurance because I was 22 at the time (it was before my birthday, as most things are) and in college so I qualified to be on her plan. Which means this should have already been taken care of. TWO YEARS AGO. I think someone somewhere goofed up but now I have to hope that Mom has this info somewhere and what happens when you get a past bill like this? Its not like I can put it on my insurance now. grrr. So thats the other stupid thing in my life. Besides my hatred for Target Red Card. But thats another story. Anyway, gotta go.

twisted

what should I do today... drive to California and see people like I told them I was going to do... stay here and paint... hang out... see a movie... hang out with sister.. hang out with new people as was invited... start moving things and decide to move? running out of time on that one. grrr....

Gauntlet Champion Revealed =D

So I have been spending lots and lots of time working... going to school... singing.. and trying to sleep. In between all that I have spent an amount of time with Chris and it is going well. =) He has seen me in various moods and social situations, not all of them at my best... few at my best but hey? o'well. Reality and all. Through all the moods and crazy stuff I seem to have been throwing at him he has been unwaivering, kind, patient, and good humoured. I don't really know why I seem to want to test him so strenuously... it wasn't something I conciously realized I was doing but I believe in some twisted way I know he is not going to get mad over something stupid or leave me out of nowhere and all that. blah. I think I just wanted to show the extremities of my personality because I don't want to get involved with someone if they end up having a problem with my personality instead of a deliberate action. Oh and I told him next time I am all tispy and being stupid just walk up and stake claim cause he's the only one who has any. Plus I like a bit of man handleing now and then. I don't mean verbal mind you... don't go there. I have not put anyone through the emotion roller coaster gauntlet before but he is just walking through it with flying colors. I think the end result is sooo much better than me just being even keeled and stuff until I have an emotional breakdown or get really hyper one day and the guy is like huh? not the docile girl I thought I had. Well, I guess that is an extreme cause I am not very docile. blah ok so enough with the crazy self eval stuff.... end result: I need more sleep, Chris is awesome, and I won in the megabucks jackpot of boyfriends.

My friend Patrick wrote this, proving once again he is probably the coolest guy I know. I really miss him. =D

It's my flag too.
"It occurs to me to be almost irked, because it's my flag too. So often the people who claim it do so in the name of religion and/or personal gain, or as a starting point for issuing veiled threats against opposing opinions and other nations that they have never actually seen. Flag-wavers are usually put on one end of the scale, with tree-huggers at the other end, but in truth anyone willing to express a different opinion than those around them are the most ardent supporters of the foundations of this country.
It's my flag too. It's my country, too. I'm sickened by these hordes of slackass hipsters who treat it as something to be despised, because they are of the impression that it represents things that they don't approve of. On second look that may be true, because that flag and this country are founded on people believing they can make a difference, and everyone knows hipsters don't act with that much integrity. The name hipster has become ironically reversed.
It's my flag too. It's my country too. And it's a tremendously successful country so far, but it's under attack from people who want to use the wealth of its success for their own benefit, who are so adept at verbal terrorism that the people who have the intelligence to reclaim it are terrified into hiding in their fancy houses and behind the windshields of the wheelchair that the automobile has become. And the only courageous people left haven't the strategic wherewithal to do much more than parade around and get themselves arrested in hopes that the disturbance will cause others to do something besides make a sound of sympathy at their morning paper over coffee. It doesn't seem to be working.
There's so much focus on critique as a sign of intelligence, no one will get behind any idea for fear of being duped. Fine, if you don't believe anything you see or hear that's fine, but surely you have your own ideas. Surely, if your vision is so clear as to discredit everything that has come before you, there must be some truly visionary concepts set to spring forth from the priceless jewel of your mind. (If nothing you see is worthwhile, it's your responsibility to create something.) Knowing the important names and the time-honored mottoes makes no difference. It doesn't matter what you think, it's what you do that defines you, and if you claim to have beliefs but you don't act on them then they aren't beliefs. If you don't believe in your beliefs enough to base your really real life on them, you can't expect anyone else to. That's not a belief, it's something else, a hope or an ideal or something. If you're living in fear of the consequences of your beliefs, you've already lost your life, so you may as well step up. All the types of people you dislike, be they bigots or rednecks or peaceniks or skinheads or faggots or American Idol hopefuls, they are living according to how they see it. If you don't have the courage to do the same, if you see something that you think is important and you don't have the courage to claim it, you don't have the right to cast aspersions on those who do.
Man up. If this world isn't a little better tonight than it was this morning, it's your fault. All the soldiers on both sides whose deaths are loudly lamented, this is part of what they're dying for, don't shame their memory. Speak your mind, even if your voice shakes. Make things better, even if it's just by sweeping the floor. You might surprise yourself.
Now if you'll excuse me, there are things that need tending to. Have a nice day."

yeay!

Awesome day =D I love Sundays... they can be soo cool.

oh my! Thats life....

Been a while... interesting but I haven't been writing a lot lately. That will change. I am taking Creative Writing : Fiction 2 this fall. I took the first one a couple of years ago and I really liked it. The fact that I had to get stuff written so the class could critique actually got me to sit down and write. That is why I am taking the class. I want to write. And if I am any good at it I will go to school for it =D I was always good at the writing parts of my English classes. I have enough stories to tell... ones inspired by my strangely detail oriented dreams... ones that I can write based on my life... and then stuff I just daydream about. Life is strange, and I am stranger. Once again I have three different lives in my head... I want to live all of them but I have to choose one... I tend to do that. Just hang out until a situation smacks me in the face. That hasn't worked with school though so I think I am going to take a different route. I am going to start trying things that I might like and see if something clicks. One of my first subjects to try? Programming. Chris said he would show me some stuff. I wonder if I have the patience for it or not. If I do... then it could be really cool because I have a good artistic eye and I am a linguistics major... so add computers with that and I could be doin fine... I might even work with my unlces at universal which would be awesome. But I don't know ... we have to see how good I am first... and if it is something I can stand for more than 20 mins at a time. At the very least I should be able to post pics in myspace bulletins and stuff.... so thats cool. Well, thats probably enough for now. more later I promise. =D

as seen on myspace

Got this off of a myspace profile.. I think it is totally cool and totally correct:
Written by a guy. After years of experience. This shoud be written as a guidebook for guys everywhere!
1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house...they run around in their underwear just like we do.
2. Don't cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud.
3. Beware of every single male relatives and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your butt at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.
4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.
5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.
6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.
7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.
8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.
--8.5. If you DO sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you did.
9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...
10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales.
11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy.
--11.5. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!
12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.
13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.
14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the crap out of him.
15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.
16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.
17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.
18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.
19. Don't flirt with their moms or friends...that's just freaky.
20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like crap, so be understanding.
21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.
22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.
23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.
24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.
25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.
26. Memorize their birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.
27. Don't marinade the cologne.
28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful.(if you choose to get jewelry get something simple becuase unless shes a really flashy person you could be runny a risk if you get colored stuff or something really huge!)
29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.
30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.
31.Don't ever do anything wrong (well not anything). girls remember things for life and anything you did wrong will be used against you in the future.
>>>>Repost this girls or guys if you agree<<<<<

at hot topic

This Might End Up Choppy because i am writing it from my phone but i just had a flashback of smiley when i was dateing him and he had long hair and a NIN shirt on and i remember what it was like to hug him and i think my age made that relationship not work . . . i was fifteen he was eighteen and in love with me but i wanted to see what was out there and every time that i have seen him in the last ten years he seems to have deteriorated a little more. i feel like if i had been in his life he would have good to art school and be awesome now. i miss that guy . . he gave good hugs:) well at dentist now . . . gonna get drilled so i better go

Inter-related

Well, its been a while... I just haven't had a lot of time to write or been in the writing mood lately. So this past weekend my friend Dave from high school had this big party at his house on Friday night. It was really fun. They had a DJ and a beat boxer guy that was really cool and a continuous supply of alcohol... and I passed out on the couch. Marc Kayla Heath Jolene and Kyley came with me. Kyley crashed with me on the couch and the next day we just hung out there... this would have been weird in other situations but not with Dave cause he's relaxed and groovy and so are his roommates who I also knew in high school... I think that was another reason why I stayed around... I was playing catch up... I really liked these guys and it was cool to be around them again and I felt comfortable there. It was a good time. I don't think I ever really had a decent conversation with Joe or Muskrat in high school so it was good to be able to get to know them better. Muskrat came over and watched part of Eddie Izzard ... I think I hooked him onto the executive transvestite.

Chris left me chicken soup on my door Monday night cause he knew I was sick and he thought I was at quartet rehearsal. Very sweet. Chris is really a neat guy =) He does a lot of cool things that he doesn't have to do just because he is Chris. I can't tape my shows anymore so he records them for me and then has ice cream and Sobe at his house for me when I come over and watch them. Totally cool.

Peter I think is going to fade away... he is not good at returning emails or keeping in contact long distance ... so who knows how that will play out now that he is in MN. I hope to keep him in my very peculiar, interesting, small group of people that I like to keep as my close friends. We shall see.

Alright so the rules of engagement. I think I need to just say: This is what I want in a guy.
1. brilliant/smart
2. passionate about something (not relationship... I mean like how I am about barbershop)
3. extremely talented in at least one thing
4. funny/sense of humor
5. good in bed (yes I said that)
6. calm/good natured
7. spontaneous at times
8. gets me

There are other things as well but I think that is enough for now. =D Gotta run... more later =)

Peter Millie Mark 

In need of advice

Ok so... Someone has been messing with me at work for the last two months. I haven't said anything because like all my problems in life I try to ignore them in hopes that they will go away. Stay cool, stay calm... and if you don't get riled up they will get board or something and go away. Not the case here. The mystery for the longest time was... who would risk their job by messing with someone like that? Its stupid highschool crap that doesn't belong in a work place. This person is actually attacking me because they are mad at my boss. They think they can get to my boss through me but they don't realize that I actually haven't told my boss anything about the situation.. other co-workers have been telling her. To top it off... they have now angered the entire managerial staff. So at this point... I have been told that I must handle it or the managers will handle it for me. What sucks is that we are understaffed and can't afford to loose anyone right now... and that is what this person is facing. Loosing their job. I can't understand the mentality of someone this dumb and childish. And what this person doesn't realize is that everyone thinks the whole thing is "explitive deleted up". And some people are literally saying that "someone needs to get fired over this". So I am sending out an official request for advice on how to handle this situation. Whats your opinion???

Down to business

Today is going to be an interesting day. Matt called in sick... Derek called in sick... and Jamie didn't show up and we don't have her number to call her... I think she thinks she is 12:30-8:30pm today. Oh and John called in sick upstairs so Marina is upstairs by herself which means I have to call guest services and meeting services for runs and I get to unload the trucks by myself. while answering the phones. and getting the counter. and inbounding and putting the boxes away. wow what a day. IN OTHER NEWS... I put in an application for an apartment so I might have my own place soon.. but I am still checking out the roommate option because I would have more money then and I could meet some cool person to hang with... My main concern is that I have never been able to just be myself in a living situation... always have to be quiet for someone or my alarm wakes them up or I can't have people over because they will be using the living room etc. I want all that. I want to be able to put on music at 4:30am and dance around and sing while I am getting ready for the day. I want to be able to walk naked from my bathroom to my bedroom. I want to be able to do my own thing.. I guess if I found a roommate situation where the bathroom was connected to the bedroom and they didn't mind people over and the walls were not paper thin I would be happy. Well, times a wastin' on the moving thing so I had better decide fast. Thats all for now folks. =D

This weekend rocked!!!

I had Fri Sat off this week and I had sooo much fun. It was so cool. Thursday night was swing dancing and everyone was so into it that when the swing music went off and the club music came on everyone just started dancing and we had a blast. I drank some and I was just having a ball. Friday night was the house warming party at what I call the house of shag because of its wall to wall shag carpeting. They had a giant ice block that they made into a giant shot thing. Everyone was chanting my name to do the shot thing so I did it. It was cool... although my lip and chin got cold and wet. I think there is a picture of it out there somewhere. Saturday morning I had my hair appointment so now I am a red head again. pics on myspace.com soon. And Saturday night was my friends' 50th wedding anniversary. It was really neat. They renewed their vows and my friend Kyley (who happens to be their granddaughter) modeled Dottie's wedding dress because it fit her exactly. There was a slideshow of pictures of their life together and of the family and then Stardust (men's quartet) and Wildfire (my quartet) sang for everyone. It really was a lot of fun. SO that was my weekend. =D Oh, Happy Easter! I am at work and my mom is in Cali because tomorrow my sister gets out of federal prision and goes to a half way house and mom is driving her. Thats the other news in my life. Besides contest being this weekend. Oh and my bass's husband's sister died and so my bass will be gone and I won't see her until contest this weekend. Other news??? nah.. thats enough for this blog. =D

weekly update

This last week was interesting. Peter has been in Boston so I have not had to deal with that situation for a whole week. He got back last night and I will probably not see him until swing tomorrow. Meanwhile... it was St. Patricks Day and I was supposed to be drinking with my friend Kayla but she got sick so I ended up going to Corey's work for a bit and drinking there and then I went early to swing and Marc met me there so I could drink with somebody. Its not that I am a big drinker or anything... I just had it in the plans that for once I would get to do something cool for St. Patty's Day and since my plans all fell through I decided to make my own St. Patricks Day fun. Swing dancing on alcohol is fun... I might actually be better when I'm a bit tipsy. (I never got drunk that night) Well, after dancing I went and met up with my friend Adam at IN-N-OUT and then I crashed sooo hard. I could not believe how tired I was and it was only midnight. Thats what you get when you work mornings I guess. SO that was Thursday. I think I will do a daily accountance.
Fri- went and ate at Chance's house. Met Chance's gf Shelly, his two roomie's Troy and Steve, and his friend Chris. Then went to Scarey Larrys with a bunch of my swing dance friends for a birthday party. That was interesting. Ended up having this long conversation with Mark in the parking lot before going home.
Sat-went and got nails done with Chance and then went over to Chris's for some DDR. He has this awesome set up in his living room for DDR... its dedicated to DDR. He has the metal pads and everything. I also met two more of their friends and they didn't use eachother's names enough for me to remember them =(
Sun-worked.... went home and slept.
Mon-worked... quartet was coached by David. We made great progress that I hope we keep. Then I stayed there and talked to David for a while.
Tues-worked... hung out a little with the new guy at work and then went home to get ready for friends and family night. Friends and family night was low key.. but I thought it would be thats why I didn't really invite people til the last minute because I didn't want to make it out to be a big deal. Chris came to friends and family night... so did David (well he was with all the other people he was coaching this past weekend) Both of them went to afterglow too. Kevin was working at Friday's last night so I got to see him too (its been a while because I don't go to glow very much these days since I have to work so early) All in all it was fun. I really like David.. he is funny. Well, I guess there are more things I could say but I think I will keep this blog boring for now.

Well, this weekend was an interesting one... Peter and I broke up... then played frisbee in the park the next day... and that night I got drunk and broke down. My poor friends had to deal with a blubbering me for a few hours... but I did try to keep it away from the party by confining myself to a bathroom. Thank you Corey and Millie for being there, I appriciate that a lot. Even though Peter is being kinda distant with the way that he's dealing with me I appriciate that he is letting me talk it out while I am organizing it in my head so that I will be okay. Peter is one of those people where a possible relationship could have screwed up a great friendship. I thank him for his ability to see that my emotions and romantic nature are seperate from my general like of him and our friendship... which is currently being remodeled. Wow things certainly get more complicated as one gets older.
The next order of buisness is what to do next... get myself in gear I guess... decide what I am going to do next. I know I have to move. I know I have to buy a car. I know I want to visit one of my really good friends that actually know me... I need that for my soul. I need to get a computer. I need to set myself up for some serious change because it is in the air. I want to go back to kung fu. I want to get centered again. I want to visit with old friends. Oh! thats news... k this past weekend was my kf school's grand opening of their new building and I went and I saw the old student that I had not seen in 3 or 4 years. Brian Allen Heather Dawn Dalton Bobby it was sooo cool! I really miss those guys. Anyway, I am at work... nothing is happening but I would hate to get cut-off so I will say goodbye for now.

with or without class

http://snarkyspot.blogspot.com/ wanted to be able to go back to this blog... its great!

In other news... people keep saying silly things around me in class and I think they are funny so I think I will post them. Also I keep getting these ideas of things to discuss because they sound interesting so I think I may post those as well so that I can remember them later when certain people wanna argue their little hearts out. =D For me its a bunch of musings, for them it seems to be a test of wills or a much more organized philisophical debate.

Musings on Life

Why are their so few people I really connect with? People that I really like and can relate to. Conversations flow like water, no effort, and we always have a good time. I want more friends like that. A girl just joined my chorus. She is so much fun and I like her alot. I hope to take advantage of this friendship because she is one of the very few girls that I really like. I tend to favor boys socially cause girls are just too complicated and weird at times.

Lately I have been feeling kinda out of the loop socially. My group of friends tend to socialize past my bedtime (I work really early in the AM) and my boyfriend is always with them and I feel like I get left alone alot. The BF is a whole different story. If I didn't call him for two weeks, I wouldn't hear from him and he would be fine with that. He thinks thats how relationships should work... where you don't have to talk to that person everyday. Well, I think that would be easier to abide by if I thought he actually gave a damn about me. It can be really good some days.... but thats if everything has been on his terms. Blah I don't wanna talk about it right now.

So, I made a learning tape for my chorus (my quartet made it) and we checked my notes by listening to my part played by itself and looking at the music and now the bari section leader, the underequiped person who has my job, is saying that I am wrong in two places. And they announced it in front of the bari section without ever discussing it with me. SO thats how I found out. They are saying that the section has been singing these two parts wrong and they learned it off the tape so the tape is wrong. I asked my tenor about it and she said we were all tired so it could have slipped by. SO I am having someone look at it for me cause I wanna know for sure.

The chorus was singing great this weekend and then on Tuesday they were muscling it and driving it down so much I couldn't stand it and I blame it all on Warren warming them up because he turns everyone's sound dark. He describes things that work for the men but need to be explained differently for women or you are going to get a different result than you expected.

I made a new friend yesterday. His name is Steven and he is in my Anth 434 class. We wrote notes back and forth all class and then ate IN 'N OUT in my car while I "culturized" him. Thats the term I use for bombarding people with barbershop music to introduce the stuff to them. I also play some other a cappella stuff like doo wop and religious (fun god songs that acappella groups sing) so they can hear the difference.

I made a new friend last week in Bio Lab when I went to another lab to make up the one I missed the day before. We studied for the bio test we had that week and I discovered that my level of intellegence requirement had been severely raised since the last time I checked my stupidity tolerance level. Peter is way into Science and Math and all kinds of things and to sit there and havbe someone say they don't get science or they don't like it or its too hard or whatever just bumms me out. Especially when they don't offer any other signs of intelegent life. You have to be brilliant at something or you don't impress me at all.

Well, I have babbled on long enough... time to get back to work.

barbershop girl, where are you???

ok so a few weeks ago someone wrote me saying if I ever wanna talk barbershop, write her back but then I didn't save the message soon enough in my email and now I have lost the address... so if you read this, please write again!!! Thanks =D

I am a pinup!

Ok so every month there is a different swing dance girl that Millie or Seth or both know that they ask to be the pinup on the website. I was asked to be February. Yeay! So if you wanna see the first pic go to www.lindyhop.com They change the pic every four days or so.. maybe less cause its a short month. There is an archive of past pinups in the photo gallery and you can see any of the pics that you missed there as well. I think its cute and I am happy with it. =D It was a last minute thing because the original Feb decided not to do it at the last minute and they said they were planning on me for a different month but then asked if I could do it for Feb instead since they were out a pinup. I am way excited about this. Go see it! =D yeay!

Where to live

OK so I need ideas as to where I should go. I wanna move... but I have to finish school of course. I am so sick of Vegas. I need to get out of here. It is a transient town and I keep going for the passer bys that have more personality, drive, life, and soul than any Vegas people I know. All the cool ones out here are from other places too . and they all move back to where they came from. This is not limited to relationships ... my best friends all moved as well. Zach is cool.... no responsibilities... just driving from place to place. He said I could come with him, but I can't do that. I just started this semester and I have a job and need a car soon when Heather gets out and I have people who rely on me in chorus and the quartet. I just don't want it anymore. Stage fright? HA! I never really had it in the first place but now that I just don't care... no stage fright what so ever. I finally get all the things I want.... a guy I really like and can respect where things just keep getting better... the AM shift at work with weekends off a near future possibility... to be a pinup on Lindy Hop (I am Febuary of this year)... to go back to school and finish... to be cool with my swing dance friends again... to be in a good quartet and be good at singing barbershop... to be the best in my front row... I have accomplished all these things... and now they are all going to go away. The guy is moving away, I don't have weekends off yet, in fact I have split days off this week, I haven't seen the pinups yet and it is only a day away from showing up on the website, I think I might be taking a class I have taken before and I should have taken one more class this semester so I would be that much closer to finishing.. the swing group seems to be migrating in a weird way... new people and people moving... my quartet doesn't seem to be getting any better and the chorus is seriously dragging and its just not fun anymore... I feel like I have reached a plateau. AND it would be different if I actually could use my know how but no I am "too young" and I am 24. The problem is I started the chorus at 17 and they still see me as 17. I don't know what to do right now. I could transfer somewhere but then it would take me even longer to finish, but I might actually learn something. UNLV sucks. I could go to grad school somewhere but I would have to decide what I wanted a degree in. I could just move and work in a coffee shop somewhere but I would just be at square one. I need to live completely on my own and find real people that I can count on. And then maybe someday I will get to fall in love again, this time with someone who truely loves me back. Someone I can actually trust.. and then that person would be number 3 on the list of people I actually trust. Someone I can trust my feelings with too. Damn I feel so pathetic right now. Thats what happens I guess... makes me wonder why I keep trying and why I think I will try again. blah. I gotta go.

Tag website

I just found this awesome website (because someone in the barbershop forum posted it) that has all these tags and the tags broken down into their parts... totally cool!!! Its: http://www.harmonize.com/rubix/tags/tags.html if you are into barbershop and know what a tag is and you like tags (like all good barbershoppers do) then you will like this website =D

The Great Nerding

Last night was the first Nerding that I had ever been to. LOL! Actually, that is the name that Peter called the social gathering we had last night that included watching the extended DVD version of The Return of the King, drinking, and smokin' the hooka. Really... a hooka. Not illegal, just flavored smoke. (Didn't want you to get the wrong idea) It was fun. Of course I came over after having worked from 7am to 6:45pm so I was tired and sore and it took a little while and a drink or two for my muscles to relax. Kayla and I played a round of HALO while Marc and Peter went to get the pizzas and she was trying to help me get better at aiming so she was bouncing around in front of me, not shooting, trying to get me to shoot her in the head. I am soo bad at this... there has got to be something I am not getting about all this. Anyway, she would do that, then kill me, then do that again. But what she did help me on was knowing where I am in the Beaver Creek map. SO at that map I should at least be better by being able to tell where I am and where stuff is. I am at work again right now. Its my FRIDAY!!! Two days of no work, but I have to sing so I still can't have any fun. =( I wanna day with no responsibilities. Just one day a week. Boy, I hope I end up with weekends off soon. Then I would have two days off with nothing that I "have" to do. I'm hungry.

Things I like 010805

ok so I have noticed things that I like or that have made me feel all warm and fuzzy this week so I decided to list them:
1. Rocket launchers in HALO2
2. Old Asian guys named Ernie
3. Construction workers on their way home (they seem really happy and fun)(NOT the cat-calling kind)
4. Spending an awesome morning with Peter
5. Glidey smooth swing songs that aren't too slow
6. New far away friends that appriciate your rambling mind
7. Boyfriends who surprise you with genuine boyfriend behaviour
8. Millie
9. Being on a HALO team with Millie and Peter, especially when we all have rocket launchers
10. Dancing with Corey
11. Warm housecoats bought for next Christmas given early to fight the 4am cold- thank you Mom =)
12. Old friends who never lose their "new car smell"

electronic improvement

Wahoo! Peter and I just bought an Xbox today... now we can play HALO and get better so when we play with all of our swing dancin' friends we won't be the two worst players out there. Plus its fun. And I have my own controller. Its blue. I am going to put stickers or something on it so that if I take it to a HALO night I won't lose it. Oh and I am supossed to be getting my cell number put into my name today so I will have a new phone too!!! yeay me!!! =D My number is currently on a shared plan with my friend Melissa but she moved to GA so now I am just gonna have my own plan. Well, gotta go play some HALO!!!

grrr!

ok so I just wrote this blog and somehow it dissapeared. this makes me aaaannnnnggggrrrrryy

here is the short version:

passwords

some use all the time some just for one thing and often forget. bf has a password on phone for picture viewing etc so you can't delete a bad pic of yourself. ugly people I have dated have broken into email passwords and messed with my email. an ex got mad cause I called someone he didn't know

last night

watched Duets and The Broken Hearts Club with bf. He liked them... not very common for me that people like my fav movies. I recommend Duets to anyone but Broken Hearts only to those "relaxed and groovy" types. Basically if you are a conservative don't bother.

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This was sooo much better the first time around.